Coming into my freshman year, I was very worried about meeting new people and making new friends. Also, no one in my immediate family lived in a dorm during college, so I had no idea what it would be like to live in a dorm or with a roommate or anything like that. Overall, I think I worried too much about what now seem like little things. If I could go back to the beginning of the year, I would tell myself to stop worrying about all those things. I am grateful for being a part of HSSP – it has allowed me to meet many more people and make many more friends than I would have had I lived in any other dorm.
I would also tell myself to relax, have fun, and take more chances. Throughout the year, I have attempted several things and applied for a couple opportunities that I failed at or was not offered. It was kind of hard to accept those feelings at first, but I learned so much about myself and my abilities from those experiences and I have been able to work on improving those skills for the next time I need them. I would tell myself to take these chances earlier and make mistakes, because that is when I learned the most about myself.
More towards the beginning of this school year, I wanted the year to be over quickly so that I could move on to my sophomore year and then onto junior then senior year, and then graduation. Around winter break time, I realized just how quickly this year was going by. Although it sounds very cliche and hokey, I would tell myself to stop wishing for the future and start appreciating all the good things about today. Even now, this is something that I have to continue to remind myself about – I find myself wishing for September already so that I can move back into Couzens and see all my friends again.
Dr. Vercler discussed the uniqueness of the surgeon role when he discussed the ways surgeons develop and invent new surgical techniques, the role of clinician vs. researcher, and the relationship between patient and surgeon. Surgeons are definitely a unique form of physician – they are more personally and deeply involved in each patient’s life and feel a greater level of responsibility for the patient’s outcome.
This relationship can present tension and create conflict in the patient – surgeon relationship when values differ. I think that the patient has the final say in whether they have an operation or procedure done or not. After all, it is their body and they will have to live with the outcome and aftermath of the procedure, not the surgeon. So, I think that as long as the patient fully understands the benefits and drawbacks of accepting and declining a procedure, then the surgeon should not deny them that. Of course, there are exceptions. If the patient is a minor who does not want the procedure done, but their parents do, then the patient’s wishes would not be met. Also, if the patient was not capable of making the decision for any reason, the surgeon would have the ability to decide whether or not do perform the procedure. But, this should be done with the patient’s best interest in mind, not the personal opinions and values of the surgeon.
After reading the letter I wrote to myself at the beginning of the semester, I found it funny the things that I worried about in September. Now at the end of the semester, I can see that those were things that I did not need to worry about because they all turned out fine in the end. Something I am most proud of is that I accomplished all but one of the goals I had written in my letter. I wanted to improve the spiritual slice of the wellness wheels we filled out, and I believe through yoga and other health promoting/stress reducing things I did this semester, I have improved that area of my life. I was also worried about meeting deadlines and finishing assignments on time, but I think my organization has improved, so I was able to easily meet all but one of the deadlines. Professionally, I have not changed dramatically. I still want to get a nursing degree, but my confidence in my career decisions has grown. I am now completely confident that nursing is the career path that I want to follow. Next semester, I would like to work on improving my relationship with my roommate and strengthen my existing relationships with people that I know in HSSP. It has taken a while for me to come to accept that I am in college. I have been waiting for that moment to hit, but I think it has taken so long because I made so many new friends so quickly because of being in HSSP.
Death and dying is not something that we think about often. The speakers we had in class this week both talked about the importance of thinking about what we would like to have happen before we or our family members are put in the position of being forced to make those decisions. As far as the legacy I would like to leave, some of the values I would like people to associate with me would be trustworthy, patient, and empathetic. I think that these qualities are very important for a health care provider to have, and I would like to be known as a nurse who possessed those qualities. I also think that service is an important part of the legacy that I would like to leave. In high school, I volunteered a lot, and now that I am in college I would like to continue to give back to my community. A quote that I think goes along with this is by Maya Angelou and she says that “people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” This statement really sums up the kind of person and nurse that I hope to be.